just some random though

there's one thing that i regret the most, why can't i become cassiopeia from the start??
but other than that i feel so blessed for become part of cassiopeia family :D

every time i saw the most new picture of them, i would giggles >///< sometimes screaming with joy, omg!!!! i even remember once i run to my mom just to show her my new dbsk picture and kissed the picture several times :)

i start to like yunjae*no bashing please* i love them being together.... i know that in my place their relantionship is taboo, heck even my friends doesn't agree with me... but hey it's what i believe and yunjae is the first couple that made me become open mind people, thanks a lot to them :)

when the lawsuit become more serious case and dbsk being separate, i felt the way all cassiopeia in the world felt...... sadness,sorrow,anger mix become one. then jaejoong, yoochun ang junsu made JYJ and yunho and changmin made HOMIN. i'm ok with that at firs but still avoiding all their song, not because i hate it... but because hearing their voice 3 nor 2 always bring tears to my eyes, it's like there's something missing, there are this hollow felt in my chest and it was hurt :') after so long i start to search JYJ most sadness song "W", i cried 2 hours nonstop, i don't know if other cassie cried like me too or i'm just being crybaby.... but you know... the lyric, and the most sadness part was when yoochun singing his part "we love you both",*i cried when i write this* it's made me trembling and imagination how was homin reaction when they saw this performa, were they felt sad?? or angry?? or didn't care for whatever related to JYJ?? i don't know :'( sometimes i pretend that everything is ok, dbsk still together as 5, heck even i refuse to acknowledge jyj nor homin news, but along with time... i try to accept the reallyti and just can hope the best for them, i wish they can become together being 5 like before, true, heck every cassie wish that. but whatever they choice i,no i think all cassiopeia too would always support them and always keep the faith for them.

no bashing please... it's just what i felt and i write it because i want to share what i felt with everyone :)